Posts Tagged ‘life’
I don’t really know how to cope with the despair some days. One foot in front of the other, fake smile, showing up for other people’s children while the demands of just keeping up pull me in every direction except with the people I want to spend more time with: friends, my fambly.
A therapist won’t [...]
Fear and shame have a feeling of insidious tendrils, twisting and winding their way through the cracks in your wall of identity, forcing it asunder and exposing the inner, small, worthless you to the world. It is these times that I cling to the small beauties of life: rays of light flooding from holes in [...]
I’m grateful to be writing this post, and grateful to be sitting here on this couch typing it, and grateful to have had a full day’s work done before coming home to do so. The things we own can do mighty works. This laptop is my tool to communicate, to express with the written word, [...]
Well, the semester is coming rapidly to a head, both in Latin and at NC State. I have discovered over this spring break a prodigious capacity within myself for doing nothing while feeling like I’m working my ass off. Running the Red Queen’s race, they call it. I find myself doing things to buy time, [...]
Well, the crud got me, too. I made it through Wednesday without too much difficulty, though the aches started Weds. evening. But Thursday I was rapidly headed downhill, and by 5pm, it was all I could do to drive home. Even had to bail on a school commitment. I tried so hard not to be [...]
Not for me, but for the Sidhe. I am taking care of her today while her body wages war on a sub-microscopic invader. Well, haven’t gone to the doctor yet, so we don’t know if it’s actually the flu. But the symptoms, speed, and severity seem to line up. Thank goodness for weekends. We went [...]
Wow, this last year has been a blaze of…something. Last year this time I was hip-deep in the spring semester, and panicking every other day. Now I’m hip-deep in the spring semester, and panicking every day. Progress, of a sort.
The lesson from Xenophon’s tale, of course–be it true or fabricated–is that even when surrounded by [...]
Little room is left for side pursuits when you are burning the candle at both ends. I see this in my friends’ lives, and I see it in my own. I wear a set of blinders–no, truly, a cardboard box with two eye-holes cut out so I can see only what is in front of [...]
So, time to come back to things uttered in the fever pitch of self-improvement. As Chesterton says, it is the patient who is to be cured of an illness, but a man requires impatience to cure himself of his faults. (Sins, he says, but I have also no patience for that metaphysical shorthand.) To reiterate, [...]
So, I passed the PRAXIS. With flying colors! As if I ought to have had any doubt at all. So that means I am on the path to becoming a bonified, full time teacher-man, with all the professional development that entails. I survived until the winter break, though my immune system just about gave up [...]