Posts Tagged ‘panic’
So I had my last visit with my intervention subject the other day. For our last session together, I brought for her a present of a pack of glittery pencils in various colors. (She chose a pink one. It was a good choice.) She has been a real trooper, with my inconsistent scheduling (thanks to [...]
Well, the semester is coming rapidly to a head, both in Latin and at NC State. I have discovered over this spring break a prodigious capacity within myself for doing nothing while feeling like I’m working my ass off. Running the Red Queen’s race, they call it. I find myself doing things to buy time, [...]
I realize I’m dropping plates only after I’ve dropped them. This is getting very old, very fast. I forgot some important paperwork that is due tomorrow; I am barely keeping pace with my lesson plans, and I don’t know how to fix this broken cycle I’m in. I don’t want to get fired. I just [...]
There is a Scylla in my brain, that grabs my executive function and wrests it away from me every time I catch a glimpse of the way forward. Writhing tentacles whip around in there, gripping my motivations. Sometimes it will dangle them in front of me, taunting me with what I already know. I have [...]
Yep, screaming. I’m out of meds, and coffee is only marginally effective. I got my last project in on time for one class, but I am afraid I’m going to need to turn in the rest of my stuff for the other class as late. My task is to create several plans (behavioral, lesson, you [...]